SEIZE

Today went by so fast for me. A day that I have long been dreading and it wasn't bad at all. I was needing this surgery and kept delaying it for different reasons. So I finally had it done today and am glad that it is over with. I would say that I don't like hospitals, but then again who does right? I'm so use to them that I have all the doctors speeches about risks and blah blah blah pretty much down.


So today was a bit different, I drove myself and was feeling a bit bummed about it. Well I had spoken to D and Kim earlier and they said they would go bye and see me, but as I was driving to the hospital I was regretting not letting my parents go. At that exact moment D called and said she was there waiting already. See I had told D and Kim that they didn't need to go, but I guess I really wanted them too. My friend Rosie was giving me a hard time about all the brothers and sisters that couldn't go with me. I defended them because it was my fault, I really didn't let anyone know. My church family knew and my parents, sis Vikki, and Noel. The thing with my parents is that they are old and worry badly about me. I guess I just didn't want them there feeling bad for me. It was hard stopping my dad from going, I just kept telling him that it would be in and out.


So it went well, I was home by six. Although I didn't get to talk to the doctor after, and have to wait about two weeks to do so, I heard the nurses talking and saying that the endometriosis was burnt off. So hopefully no more pain for me. Oh and I had the best nurse ever her name is Jessie and she was just great. I had to ask her how long shes been a nurse and can you believe it's been eleven years. I thought how great that she still has the love for it. So I gave her some brownies before I left. I had baked last night thinking it would be that last, kidding.


Oh the most important thing that I wanted to tell you all about, almost forgot. So I have always grossed out with the gowns that they give you to wear. It's actually one of the things that I think of when I think about surgery time. Well there are new ones that go in the trash after being used woo hoo. I took a pic hmm should I share it? It's neat it has holes for a vacuum sort of tube looking thing to blow hot air in. Keeps you oh so warm.



Just wanted to say thanks D and Kim for hanging out with me, love you guys so so much.

QUINZE

I hope that I'm the only one that is original and blogs about the rain. Kidding it's not really about today, just that the rain brought back a memory. I was sitting here at work looking out the window watching the rain. Which if there is one thing I don't like it is the rain, well to be out in it. Well as I sat here I remembered my mom and how she was always running when it rained, to this day actually.

My mom is a bit old fashioned, but the real old fashioned type of lady. I love her so so much, had to share that. Well see she still hangs laundry out to dry and has had a dryer for the longest time. She also has a washboard that she uses daily. The memory that came to me is when the rain came,mom ran. She ran out of the house to go get the laundry down from the line. Most of the time I would be looking out the window at her. I was never allowed to go help her because she didn't want me to get wet. Hmmm maybe that is why I despise getting wet so much, it's all her fault. Anyhow,I remembered this particular time that she ran out. I was at the window with my brother Noel and she was running back with her arms full of clothes. I guess she didn't have time to get a basket in the spur of the moment, lol. Well she fell flat on her butt, and me being bad at holding a laugh in,was just there watching and laughing so hard.



I'm so bad at laughing, especially when I am getting in trouble. So if I have ever laughed at you and made you feel badly,well sorry.

The other Niece

Today was a good day, I got to leave work early for an appointment at the doctors and since it's right next door to Madison's daycare I decided to go pick her up. So she has been going to the same daycare since she was months old. This daycare "Jellybeans", is a pretty good daycare I guess. The workers all seem pretty nice which is a good thing. It is a really good thing because Madison can be a bit spoiled at times. It's my brothers fault of course. See my brother Saul has another daughter, but he didn't exactly raise her. He was stationed in Germany when he found out about Amber. Anyhow so they spoil Madison a lot.

Well I go to pick her up and for some strange reason it seems like she always has an accident when I go for her. So I'm always walking out with a plastic bag of peed clothes, Grosssssss! So I tell her we are going to see the grandparents and she gets all happy. It's not because she misses them, but because she is a little pig and loves to eat my moms food. We get there and my mom and dad get all excited. My dad starts to interrogate her about how they are treating her there at the daycare. See my dad has a feeling that they treat her bad because she is so spoiled. He is always saying things like that they don't feed her that's why she gets there all hungry. I tell him that she is just a pig.

Well we hung out there for a bit and then I took her home with me. She helped with dinner, talk about slowing me down too. So Saul calls me to tell me that he is going to Walmart so for me to keep her for another half hour, so I say fine. Well then his wife "Monica" calls like a second later and tells me to leave in about ten minutes to drop her off. She says that they are going to do "something" and that it won't take long. GROSSSSSSS this will teach her to talk like that to me.

Well here is the funny part, well at least to me it was. So Madison asks me "why did you yell gross Lucy," and I say well I'm glad you asked ha ha ha. I tell her because your mom and dad are making a baby. She says I will close my eyes then when I get home. Ahh I laughed forever when she said that. Of course when we get there she tells her mom and she gave me a look like she was so shocked. So I tell her don't give me that look, now you know to never share that type of info with me again.

THIRTEEN

It's just needed so badly sometimes and even when it's not it's just wanted. That is the way I feel about Sundays. This morning was a day very much needed for me at least. I woke up and was in great spirits and eager to get to church.

Recently, well actually yesterday I had to change my settings on my blog because of some not so nice messages that have been appearing on my blog. I had chosen to just simply delete them and not respond to them. Well this morning I noticed a couple of new comments that needed to be published or rejected. Well on of them was from this one whom has been publishing as Del Me Sinner. So it was a pretty ugly message, so much so that I was glad I was the only one that read it. Now I don't say that because it had any truth to it, but because it gave me chills that this person talks the way that they do. This person said that they see me everyday at church and has the same friends as I. Now I don't think that there is much truth to this, only because I know the friends that I have and I know that they wouldn't want to be around such ugliness. I really don't care because you hide your identity and say things that don't make sense. Whether it be to throw me off or for whatever pleasure that you get out of this. Now the only reason that I am now typing this blog and possible wasting my time is because you said something to me, and I hope that you hold truth to it.

You asked me to admit in front of everyone on my blog that I am a sinner. You said that in doing this you would leave me alone. This is not anything hard for me to do. See the day that I was saved is the day that I accepted that I was a sinner and as long as I am here on earth it will be so. Now this isn't even being done for myself, but for all of us to be left alone. So I hope that this will give you the satisfaction that you are wanting. I pray that God will touch your heart in such a way that you will understand why it is not hard for me to do this,

I admit that I am a rotten filthy sinner.

I also admit that by the grace of God I have forgiveness.

Now I ask you to please let us be. I'm sorry for your hurting and anger.

Babysitting

Today was great, the whole day was spent at church well with the church. This morning I woke up to get dressed and remembered that I would be babysitting Jaimie my niece. My sister had to work at school, some kind of in service or something. Well I go look in my nieces room and of course she is up watching cartoons. So I tell her that she needs to get dressed so she can come withe me to the church. Her response is that her close is in the closet. Well it hits me that she doesn't get dressed on her own. So she is in the closet with me and I pick out her clothes for her. I just thought that it was so funny how she doesn't care to have a say so in what she will wear.

I remember at her age (seven), I had to pick out my clothes. I wouldn't let my mom do it for me. Well I guess Jaimie is so different than me from when I was her age. She puts the clothes on and I go to do my hair. I started to brush her hair, which I am not too good at doing others hair for some reason so I was getting frustrated. I finish and go to brush my teeth. When I return to her room she is doing her hair over and I ask why. She simply says that she didn't like the clip that I used. Well I have her choose another clip and do her hair exactly the same. Once again I leave the room to hurry and finish with myself. When I go to get her she has undone her hair again. Now I know that this little girl is not liking the way that I am fixing her hair. I guess she didn't want to tell me because she thought that I would get mad or sad or something. I laugh and tell her baby if you didn't like it all you had to do was tell me. She just gave me this cute smile.

I had fun taking care of her and getting her dressed. I don't do that much,actually I think this was a first with her. I look forward to doing it again.

ONZE

The week is finally over with and I'm so glad. I thought I would have enjoyed being alone at work more, but I actually felt the pressure. The orders just kept coming in and at times I just wanted to cry. So all my days of doing absolutely nothing, well I can say that I made up for them this week. I am actually looking forward to having Judy and George back on Monday. I hope they bring me something other than a key chain. That's what I got last time and Adriane bought be some snow globe thing.

I was so busy today and my day was going by pretty fast. I was having a really good day and then just like that I let something get me down. I thought of just leaving this alone but I felt really sad about the whole thing. I just don't understand how someone who is saved and knows God or has experienced His love, well I don't understand how they could put others down. It's hard to describe what I felt today when I saw that comment on my blog and it wasn't the first one, but this one just touched me somehow. What do you feel to be mean to others? I don't get it at all. What is the point? If you know what love is, I mean truly know what it is to be loved by God why would you show hate or anger?

I have always made it a point to try and not hurt others. I have heard it more than once that I don't defend myself. I honestly don't see it like that. I don't even think of it as being the better person. I can't explain it exactly but I'll try.

I guess I just feel like I can handle it, I don't need to be ugly back, I don't need to hurt someone and I wouldn't want to. We are all the same, we get hurt, embarrassed and no one likes to get treated unkindly. I wish you could feel what I felt, I wish you didn't find it necessary to be mean. We are all Gods children and it hurts Him when we hurt. With God in your heart how is it possible to talk on someone so unkindly. These are church people who wake up every morning trying to live their best for God. God is the only one who can judge us so just leave it to Him. He is the only one that I want to judge me because He is the only one that knows what I stand for.

(DIX)

Well I was ready to start my blog and started with the title which I usually save for last. The titles have been really easy for me because I have been using numbers. But tonight was going to be different, I actually had a title and all. So I was sitting here in front of the computer as usual with my tea lol, and in walks my sister. Well that did it for me, I lost my material. She started telling me a story which I think was a continuation of last night. I really couldn't say because I wasn't listening. She knows it too, that I don't listen when I'm blogging.

I know I was thinking along the lines of how it's so awesome how God made us. How He gave us all these different emotions and the ability to express them. Sure we don't always share them the way we should but it's just great that we can, if we really wanted to or when we choose to. Why don't we sometimes? I really do kick myself in the butt when a moment has passed that I didn't say what I wanted to.

Like when Kim sings a song that just gets me so deep. Or when people get knots in their throats while asking for a prayer request. You feel their concern and need, it's just so great to share things like that. Where would we be without Him? What would we have to look forward to? What would we have without the feelings and emotions that He gave us?