Sunday, January 27, 2008
Chiflada
Yesterday morning I had breakfast with my two brothers and two nieces. We were waiting for a table for about 45 minutes. We finally get a table and order. Well everyone gets lunch being that breakfast was way over. I didn't feel like lunch so I just said that I would eat off of someones plate, so my brothers wouldn't give me a hard time about not ordering. So my brother Saul is Reading the paper and it is blocking the view of his coffee. Well I decide to mess with his coffee and pour in a few more sugar packets into his cup. His daughter Amber is sitting across from me laughing. We can't wait for him to take a big gulp. He finally does and doesn't react at all. Well then Amber decided to squeeze a lemon into his cup of coffee. For sure he will notice this and we are trying our best to restrain from laughing so much. Saul takes another big gulp and spits it all out on the table and some gets on me grrrr. We were laughing so hard. I thought that he would have been so mad at her, and me for encouraging it. I had a great time feeding Madison her "chifladas", that's what she calls enchiladas. I really love going out with them, we always laugh so much.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Laughing
What would you say is your most favorite emotion to show? Everyone I am sure would say laughing. It's great to laugh, think of how you feel when you are doing it. We love to be around people who make us laugh and it's just a really great emotion to express. I am not much of a comedian but I do have this one brother, boy can he make me laugh.
Then there is that laughing so hard that your eyes water, and your stomach hurts and you just can't stop for anything in the world. Then there are the giggles. Boy do those giggles always get me into trouble. Today at work our boss was mad about something and he got us all together to I guess blow off steam. Well one look at Adriane and that was the end of me. I could not stop laughing for anything. We kept trying to not look at each other but boy it's like you know that shes there and just the thought of her smile and giggling is it. Man those are the best moments I think. Even if at the time you are trying so hard to quit giggling.
I think I love the giggles most, and I laugh at all the wrong moments sometimes, but boy is it worth it.
Then there is that laughing so hard that your eyes water, and your stomach hurts and you just can't stop for anything in the world. Then there are the giggles. Boy do those giggles always get me into trouble. Today at work our boss was mad about something and he got us all together to I guess blow off steam. Well one look at Adriane and that was the end of me. I could not stop laughing for anything. We kept trying to not look at each other but boy it's like you know that shes there and just the thought of her smile and giggling is it. Man those are the best moments I think. Even if at the time you are trying so hard to quit giggling.
I think I love the giggles most, and I laugh at all the wrong moments sometimes, but boy is it worth it.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
SO MAD
I'm so mad because I completely lost track of time and forgot to blog. I wanted to be different and special and be the only one who didn't mess this up. GRRRRR! Maybe if I would have not slept so much this would not have happened. Oh well, I guess it wasn't meant to be.
This day has been just a long, lazy, sleepy day. Whoever does this on a regular basis, well all I have say to them is, "Wow how do you do it?" I rather be up and about doing stuff and can't stand just laying around. See nothing good comes of it anyway, my perfect streak was ruined for being a bed head. :(
This day has been just a long, lazy, sleepy day. Whoever does this on a regular basis, well all I have say to them is, "Wow how do you do it?" I rather be up and about doing stuff and can't stand just laying around. See nothing good comes of it anyway, my perfect streak was ruined for being a bed head. :(
Friday, January 18, 2008
Before I Go
Before I go I want to be a part of something so amazing. Something so amazing to where I feel warm and happy and sad all in the same moment. Not because I want to be remembered but just because God has given me so much that I want to give some how before I go.
I do not know what it is, but I know that God has something planned for me. I know also that it has to do with kids. I really love being around them, and in fact feel badly that I act like one at times and rather hang out and jump on the trampling instead of fellowship with the adults. I have cried so much and prayed so much for a baby, I've had three yes, and God has chosen to keep them and I have found comfort threw Him in all this.
I just know that I would be so good with them, I know it. Maybe I won't ever have the knowing of having my own child here on earth, but I believe with all my heart that God will give me something close, if not better. This has to have truth to it, I can't explain it but I know the feeling that I get every time I think of it. I smile in and out and keep smiling for moments at a time.
I do not know what it is, but I know that God has something planned for me. I know also that it has to do with kids. I really love being around them, and in fact feel badly that I act like one at times and rather hang out and jump on the trampling instead of fellowship with the adults. I have cried so much and prayed so much for a baby, I've had three yes, and God has chosen to keep them and I have found comfort threw Him in all this.
I just know that I would be so good with them, I know it. Maybe I won't ever have the knowing of having my own child here on earth, but I believe with all my heart that God will give me something close, if not better. This has to have truth to it, I can't explain it but I know the feeling that I get every time I think of it. I smile in and out and keep smiling for moments at a time.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
DIX-SEPT
Seventeen days straight and haven't missed a day, ah what a feeling. Although I was a bit nervous that I would miss yesterday, but glad that I didn't have to. I missed church yesterday and sure did miss it. I pretty much stayed in bed and tried to let my body get back to normal. This morning I was feeling good so got out of bed and well was walking around the house getting food and putting my laundry to wash. I am not to good at resting when I'm told to do so. This time it was very different being that I was here alone so had no one to get mad at me.
Well I definitely learned my lesson this evening. See I made dinner and baked and came to see what was happening on the blogs. I had told my friend Rosie to come over and have dinner and dessert that I had made so she was on her way over. Well I started feeling the pain in my chest get worse and I know this pain, it is familiar to me because I have had it before after surgery, but just not this badly. This time it was so different, it was horrible I couldn't bare it. So Rosie gets here and finds me crying like a big baby and I know she is feeling so so bad for me. She calls the doctors office and they tell her to take me to the emergency room. Well as I am crying in bed Rosie is kind of getting mad at me because she is well aware of what I have been up to all day long.
She allows me to lay in bed and cry it out for a while, I then ask her to help me sit up. I sit up and tell her that I feel a bit better and don't want to go to the ER. Well thankfully she doesn't make me go and she just sat with me in my room and we talked a bit. She was trying her best to not make me laugh because that caused so much pain as well. To bad for me that she is just naturally funny and can't help it.
Lesson learned the hard way, I will stay in bed all day tomorrow and not get up but to go to the ladies room. The pain was that bad that I won't dare get out of bed for any other reason.
Rosie thanks for being with me and I'm glad it was you who saw me cry and not anyone else. I love you so so much and I hope I can do the same for you one day. Oh, and if you comment please take it easy on me. I said lesson learned!
Well I definitely learned my lesson this evening. See I made dinner and baked and came to see what was happening on the blogs. I had told my friend Rosie to come over and have dinner and dessert that I had made so she was on her way over. Well I started feeling the pain in my chest get worse and I know this pain, it is familiar to me because I have had it before after surgery, but just not this badly. This time it was so different, it was horrible I couldn't bare it. So Rosie gets here and finds me crying like a big baby and I know she is feeling so so bad for me. She calls the doctors office and they tell her to take me to the emergency room. Well as I am crying in bed Rosie is kind of getting mad at me because she is well aware of what I have been up to all day long.
She allows me to lay in bed and cry it out for a while, I then ask her to help me sit up. I sit up and tell her that I feel a bit better and don't want to go to the ER. Well thankfully she doesn't make me go and she just sat with me in my room and we talked a bit. She was trying her best to not make me laugh because that caused so much pain as well. To bad for me that she is just naturally funny and can't help it.
Lesson learned the hard way, I will stay in bed all day tomorrow and not get up but to go to the ladies room. The pain was that bad that I won't dare get out of bed for any other reason.
Rosie thanks for being with me and I'm glad it was you who saw me cry and not anyone else. I love you so so much and I hope I can do the same for you one day. Oh, and if you comment please take it easy on me. I said lesson learned!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
SEIZE
Today went by so fast for me. A day that I have long been dreading and it wasn't bad at all. I was needing this surgery and kept delaying it for different reasons. So I finally had it done today and am glad that it is over with. I would say that I don't like hospitals, but then again who does right? I'm so use to them that I have all the doctors speeches about risks and blah blah blah pretty much down.
So today was a bit different, I drove myself and was feeling a bit bummed about it. Well I had spoken to D and Kim earlier and they said they would go bye and see me, but as I was driving to the hospital I was regretting not letting my parents go. At that exact moment D called and said she was there waiting already. See I had told D and Kim that they didn't need to go, but I guess I really wanted them too. My friend Rosie was giving me a hard time about all the brothers and sisters that couldn't go with me. I defended them because it was my fault, I really didn't let anyone know. My church family knew and my parents, sis Vikki, and Noel. The thing with my parents is that they are old and worry badly about me. I guess I just didn't want them there feeling bad for me. It was hard stopping my dad from going, I just kept telling him that it would be in and out.
So it went well, I was home by six. Although I didn't get to talk to the doctor after, and have to wait about two weeks to do so, I heard the nurses talking and saying that the endometriosis was burnt off. So hopefully no more pain for me. Oh and I had the best nurse ever her name is Jessie and she was just great. I had to ask her how long shes been a nurse and can you believe it's been eleven years. I thought how great that she still has the love for it. So I gave her some brownies before I left. I had baked last night thinking it would be that last, kidding.
Oh the most important thing that I wanted to tell you all about, almost forgot. So I have always grossed out with the gowns that they give you to wear. It's actually one of the things that I think of when I think about surgery time. Well there are new ones that go in the trash after being used woo hoo. I took a pic hmm should I share it? It's neat it has holes for a vacuum sort of tube looking thing to blow hot air in. Keeps you oh so warm.
Just wanted to say thanks D and Kim for hanging out with me, love you guys so so much.
So today was a bit different, I drove myself and was feeling a bit bummed about it. Well I had spoken to D and Kim earlier and they said they would go bye and see me, but as I was driving to the hospital I was regretting not letting my parents go. At that exact moment D called and said she was there waiting already. See I had told D and Kim that they didn't need to go, but I guess I really wanted them too. My friend Rosie was giving me a hard time about all the brothers and sisters that couldn't go with me. I defended them because it was my fault, I really didn't let anyone know. My church family knew and my parents, sis Vikki, and Noel. The thing with my parents is that they are old and worry badly about me. I guess I just didn't want them there feeling bad for me. It was hard stopping my dad from going, I just kept telling him that it would be in and out.
So it went well, I was home by six. Although I didn't get to talk to the doctor after, and have to wait about two weeks to do so, I heard the nurses talking and saying that the endometriosis was burnt off. So hopefully no more pain for me. Oh and I had the best nurse ever her name is Jessie and she was just great. I had to ask her how long shes been a nurse and can you believe it's been eleven years. I thought how great that she still has the love for it. So I gave her some brownies before I left. I had baked last night thinking it would be that last, kidding.
Oh the most important thing that I wanted to tell you all about, almost forgot. So I have always grossed out with the gowns that they give you to wear. It's actually one of the things that I think of when I think about surgery time. Well there are new ones that go in the trash after being used woo hoo. I took a pic hmm should I share it? It's neat it has holes for a vacuum sort of tube looking thing to blow hot air in. Keeps you oh so warm.
Just wanted to say thanks D and Kim for hanging out with me, love you guys so so much.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
QUINZE
I hope that I'm the only one that is original and blogs about the rain. Kidding it's not really about today, just that the rain brought back a memory. I was sitting here at work looking out the window watching the rain. Which if there is one thing I don't like it is the rain, well to be out in it. Well as I sat here I remembered my mom and how she was always running when it rained, to this day actually.
My mom is a bit old fashioned, but the real old fashioned type of lady. I love her so so much, had to share that. Well see she still hangs laundry out to dry and has had a dryer for the longest time. She also has a washboard that she uses daily. The memory that came to me is when the rain came,mom ran. She ran out of the house to go get the laundry down from the line. Most of the time I would be looking out the window at her. I was never allowed to go help her because she didn't want me to get wet. Hmmm maybe that is why I despise getting wet so much, it's all her fault. Anyhow,I remembered this particular time that she ran out. I was at the window with my brother Noel and she was running back with her arms full of clothes. I guess she didn't have time to get a basket in the spur of the moment, lol. Well she fell flat on her butt, and me being bad at holding a laugh in,was just there watching and laughing so hard.
I'm so bad at laughing, especially when I am getting in trouble. So if I have ever laughed at you and made you feel badly,well sorry.
My mom is a bit old fashioned, but the real old fashioned type of lady. I love her so so much, had to share that. Well see she still hangs laundry out to dry and has had a dryer for the longest time. She also has a washboard that she uses daily. The memory that came to me is when the rain came,mom ran. She ran out of the house to go get the laundry down from the line. Most of the time I would be looking out the window at her. I was never allowed to go help her because she didn't want me to get wet. Hmmm maybe that is why I despise getting wet so much, it's all her fault. Anyhow,I remembered this particular time that she ran out. I was at the window with my brother Noel and she was running back with her arms full of clothes. I guess she didn't have time to get a basket in the spur of the moment, lol. Well she fell flat on her butt, and me being bad at holding a laugh in,was just there watching and laughing so hard.
I'm so bad at laughing, especially when I am getting in trouble. So if I have ever laughed at you and made you feel badly,well sorry.
Monday, January 14, 2008
The other Niece
Today was a good day, I got to leave work early for an appointment at the doctors and since it's right next door to Madison's daycare I decided to go pick her up. So she has been going to the same daycare since she was months old. This daycare "Jellybeans", is a pretty good daycare I guess. The workers all seem pretty nice which is a good thing. It is a really good thing because Madison can be a bit spoiled at times. It's my brothers fault of course. See my brother Saul has another daughter, but he didn't exactly raise her. He was stationed in Germany when he found out about Amber. Anyhow so they spoil Madison a lot.
Well I go to pick her up and for some strange reason it seems like she always has an accident when I go for her. So I'm always walking out with a plastic bag of peed clothes, Grosssssss! So I tell her we are going to see the grandparents and she gets all happy. It's not because she misses them, but because she is a little pig and loves to eat my moms food. We get there and my mom and dad get all excited. My dad starts to interrogate her about how they are treating her there at the daycare. See my dad has a feeling that they treat her bad because she is so spoiled. He is always saying things like that they don't feed her that's why she gets there all hungry. I tell him that she is just a pig.
Well we hung out there for a bit and then I took her home with me. She helped with dinner, talk about slowing me down too. So Saul calls me to tell me that he is going to Walmart so for me to keep her for another half hour, so I say fine. Well then his wife "Monica" calls like a second later and tells me to leave in about ten minutes to drop her off. She says that they are going to do "something" and that it won't take long. GROSSSSSSS this will teach her to talk like that to me.
Well here is the funny part, well at least to me it was. So Madison asks me "why did you yell gross Lucy," and I say well I'm glad you asked ha ha ha. I tell her because your mom and dad are making a baby. She says I will close my eyes then when I get home. Ahh I laughed forever when she said that. Of course when we get there she tells her mom and she gave me a look like she was so shocked. So I tell her don't give me that look, now you know to never share that type of info with me again.
Well I go to pick her up and for some strange reason it seems like she always has an accident when I go for her. So I'm always walking out with a plastic bag of peed clothes, Grosssssss! So I tell her we are going to see the grandparents and she gets all happy. It's not because she misses them, but because she is a little pig and loves to eat my moms food. We get there and my mom and dad get all excited. My dad starts to interrogate her about how they are treating her there at the daycare. See my dad has a feeling that they treat her bad because she is so spoiled. He is always saying things like that they don't feed her that's why she gets there all hungry. I tell him that she is just a pig.
Well we hung out there for a bit and then I took her home with me. She helped with dinner, talk about slowing me down too. So Saul calls me to tell me that he is going to Walmart so for me to keep her for another half hour, so I say fine. Well then his wife "Monica" calls like a second later and tells me to leave in about ten minutes to drop her off. She says that they are going to do "something" and that it won't take long. GROSSSSSSS this will teach her to talk like that to me.
Well here is the funny part, well at least to me it was. So Madison asks me "why did you yell gross Lucy," and I say well I'm glad you asked ha ha ha. I tell her because your mom and dad are making a baby. She says I will close my eyes then when I get home. Ahh I laughed forever when she said that. Of course when we get there she tells her mom and she gave me a look like she was so shocked. So I tell her don't give me that look, now you know to never share that type of info with me again.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
THIRTEEN
It's just needed so badly sometimes and even when it's not it's just wanted. That is the way I feel about Sundays. This morning was a day very much needed for me at least. I woke up and was in great spirits and eager to get to church.
Recently, well actually yesterday I had to change my settings on my blog because of some not so nice messages that have been appearing on my blog. I had chosen to just simply delete them and not respond to them. Well this morning I noticed a couple of new comments that needed to be published or rejected. Well on of them was from this one whom has been publishing as Del Me Sinner. So it was a pretty ugly message, so much so that I was glad I was the only one that read it. Now I don't say that because it had any truth to it, but because it gave me chills that this person talks the way that they do. This person said that they see me everyday at church and has the same friends as I. Now I don't think that there is much truth to this, only because I know the friends that I have and I know that they wouldn't want to be around such ugliness. I really don't care because you hide your identity and say things that don't make sense. Whether it be to throw me off or for whatever pleasure that you get out of this. Now the only reason that I am now typing this blog and possible wasting my time is because you said something to me, and I hope that you hold truth to it.
You asked me to admit in front of everyone on my blog that I am a sinner. You said that in doing this you would leave me alone. This is not anything hard for me to do. See the day that I was saved is the day that I accepted that I was a sinner and as long as I am here on earth it will be so. Now this isn't even being done for myself, but for all of us to be left alone. So I hope that this will give you the satisfaction that you are wanting. I pray that God will touch your heart in such a way that you will understand why it is not hard for me to do this,
I admit that I am a rotten filthy sinner.
I also admit that by the grace of God I have forgiveness.
Now I ask you to please let us be. I'm sorry for your hurting and anger.
Recently, well actually yesterday I had to change my settings on my blog because of some not so nice messages that have been appearing on my blog. I had chosen to just simply delete them and not respond to them. Well this morning I noticed a couple of new comments that needed to be published or rejected. Well on of them was from this one whom has been publishing as Del Me Sinner. So it was a pretty ugly message, so much so that I was glad I was the only one that read it. Now I don't say that because it had any truth to it, but because it gave me chills that this person talks the way that they do. This person said that they see me everyday at church and has the same friends as I. Now I don't think that there is much truth to this, only because I know the friends that I have and I know that they wouldn't want to be around such ugliness. I really don't care because you hide your identity and say things that don't make sense. Whether it be to throw me off or for whatever pleasure that you get out of this. Now the only reason that I am now typing this blog and possible wasting my time is because you said something to me, and I hope that you hold truth to it.
You asked me to admit in front of everyone on my blog that I am a sinner. You said that in doing this you would leave me alone. This is not anything hard for me to do. See the day that I was saved is the day that I accepted that I was a sinner and as long as I am here on earth it will be so. Now this isn't even being done for myself, but for all of us to be left alone. So I hope that this will give you the satisfaction that you are wanting. I pray that God will touch your heart in such a way that you will understand why it is not hard for me to do this,
I admit that I am a rotten filthy sinner.
I also admit that by the grace of God I have forgiveness.
Now I ask you to please let us be. I'm sorry for your hurting and anger.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Babysitting
Today was great, the whole day was spent at church well with the church. This morning I woke up to get dressed and remembered that I would be babysitting Jaimie my niece. My sister had to work at school, some kind of in service or something. Well I go look in my nieces room and of course she is up watching cartoons. So I tell her that she needs to get dressed so she can come withe me to the church. Her response is that her close is in the closet. Well it hits me that she doesn't get dressed on her own. So she is in the closet with me and I pick out her clothes for her. I just thought that it was so funny how she doesn't care to have a say so in what she will wear.
I remember at her age (seven), I had to pick out my clothes. I wouldn't let my mom do it for me. Well I guess Jaimie is so different than me from when I was her age. She puts the clothes on and I go to do my hair. I started to brush her hair, which I am not too good at doing others hair for some reason so I was getting frustrated. I finish and go to brush my teeth. When I return to her room she is doing her hair over and I ask why. She simply says that she didn't like the clip that I used. Well I have her choose another clip and do her hair exactly the same. Once again I leave the room to hurry and finish with myself. When I go to get her she has undone her hair again. Now I know that this little girl is not liking the way that I am fixing her hair. I guess she didn't want to tell me because she thought that I would get mad or sad or something. I laugh and tell her baby if you didn't like it all you had to do was tell me. She just gave me this cute smile.
I had fun taking care of her and getting her dressed. I don't do that much,actually I think this was a first with her. I look forward to doing it again.
I remember at her age (seven), I had to pick out my clothes. I wouldn't let my mom do it for me. Well I guess Jaimie is so different than me from when I was her age. She puts the clothes on and I go to do my hair. I started to brush her hair, which I am not too good at doing others hair for some reason so I was getting frustrated. I finish and go to brush my teeth. When I return to her room she is doing her hair over and I ask why. She simply says that she didn't like the clip that I used. Well I have her choose another clip and do her hair exactly the same. Once again I leave the room to hurry and finish with myself. When I go to get her she has undone her hair again. Now I know that this little girl is not liking the way that I am fixing her hair. I guess she didn't want to tell me because she thought that I would get mad or sad or something. I laugh and tell her baby if you didn't like it all you had to do was tell me. She just gave me this cute smile.
I had fun taking care of her and getting her dressed. I don't do that much,actually I think this was a first with her. I look forward to doing it again.
Friday, January 11, 2008
ONZE
The week is finally over with and I'm so glad. I thought I would have enjoyed being alone at work more, but I actually felt the pressure. The orders just kept coming in and at times I just wanted to cry. So all my days of doing absolutely nothing, well I can say that I made up for them this week. I am actually looking forward to having Judy and George back on Monday. I hope they bring me something other than a key chain. That's what I got last time and Adriane bought be some snow globe thing.
I was so busy today and my day was going by pretty fast. I was having a really good day and then just like that I let something get me down. I thought of just leaving this alone but I felt really sad about the whole thing. I just don't understand how someone who is saved and knows God or has experienced His love, well I don't understand how they could put others down. It's hard to describe what I felt today when I saw that comment on my blog and it wasn't the first one, but this one just touched me somehow. What do you feel to be mean to others? I don't get it at all. What is the point? If you know what love is, I mean truly know what it is to be loved by God why would you show hate or anger?
I have always made it a point to try and not hurt others. I have heard it more than once that I don't defend myself. I honestly don't see it like that. I don't even think of it as being the better person. I can't explain it exactly but I'll try.
I guess I just feel like I can handle it, I don't need to be ugly back, I don't need to hurt someone and I wouldn't want to. We are all the same, we get hurt, embarrassed and no one likes to get treated unkindly. I wish you could feel what I felt, I wish you didn't find it necessary to be mean. We are all Gods children and it hurts Him when we hurt. With God in your heart how is it possible to talk on someone so unkindly. These are church people who wake up every morning trying to live their best for God. God is the only one who can judge us so just leave it to Him. He is the only one that I want to judge me because He is the only one that knows what I stand for.
I was so busy today and my day was going by pretty fast. I was having a really good day and then just like that I let something get me down. I thought of just leaving this alone but I felt really sad about the whole thing. I just don't understand how someone who is saved and knows God or has experienced His love, well I don't understand how they could put others down. It's hard to describe what I felt today when I saw that comment on my blog and it wasn't the first one, but this one just touched me somehow. What do you feel to be mean to others? I don't get it at all. What is the point? If you know what love is, I mean truly know what it is to be loved by God why would you show hate or anger?
I have always made it a point to try and not hurt others. I have heard it more than once that I don't defend myself. I honestly don't see it like that. I don't even think of it as being the better person. I can't explain it exactly but I'll try.
I guess I just feel like I can handle it, I don't need to be ugly back, I don't need to hurt someone and I wouldn't want to. We are all the same, we get hurt, embarrassed and no one likes to get treated unkindly. I wish you could feel what I felt, I wish you didn't find it necessary to be mean. We are all Gods children and it hurts Him when we hurt. With God in your heart how is it possible to talk on someone so unkindly. These are church people who wake up every morning trying to live their best for God. God is the only one who can judge us so just leave it to Him. He is the only one that I want to judge me because He is the only one that knows what I stand for.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
(DIX)
Well I was ready to start my blog and started with the title which I usually save for last. The titles have been really easy for me because I have been using numbers. But tonight was going to be different, I actually had a title and all. So I was sitting here in front of the computer as usual with my tea lol, and in walks my sister. Well that did it for me, I lost my material. She started telling me a story which I think was a continuation of last night. I really couldn't say because I wasn't listening. She knows it too, that I don't listen when I'm blogging.
I know I was thinking along the lines of how it's so awesome how God made us. How He gave us all these different emotions and the ability to express them. Sure we don't always share them the way we should but it's just great that we can, if we really wanted to or when we choose to. Why don't we sometimes? I really do kick myself in the butt when a moment has passed that I didn't say what I wanted to.
Like when Kim sings a song that just gets me so deep. Or when people get knots in their throats while asking for a prayer request. You feel their concern and need, it's just so great to share things like that. Where would we be without Him? What would we have to look forward to? What would we have without the feelings and emotions that He gave us?
I know I was thinking along the lines of how it's so awesome how God made us. How He gave us all these different emotions and the ability to express them. Sure we don't always share them the way we should but it's just great that we can, if we really wanted to or when we choose to. Why don't we sometimes? I really do kick myself in the butt when a moment has passed that I didn't say what I wanted to.
Like when Kim sings a song that just gets me so deep. Or when people get knots in their throats while asking for a prayer request. You feel their concern and need, it's just so great to share things like that. Where would we be without Him? What would we have to look forward to? What would we have without the feelings and emotions that He gave us?
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
NEUF
Today I said out loud "ah I haven't blogged". I suppose complaining in a way. That's not normal for me because I love to blog. I am so sleepy tonight, couldn't really sleep last night. I wasn't really pensive about anything. Well fine that's a bit of a lie. I had something on my mind and heart. I have been praying about this everymorning and I get threw the days fine. I have laughs and converse with you all just fine throughout the days. So I wanted to brag on you all a bit if it's okay.
I have a family of course that I love so much, but I have my church family that I share so much more with. I just wanted to say thanks for loving me and making me smile when I need it most. I'm so glad that I get to see you all Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays. I wish I could see you all more sometimes. I know you all wish you could see me a lot more too. Ha ha kidding. Really though we don't really tell each other how much we mean to one another. So I'm glad that I beat you all to it. I love you guys so much and am so thankful that God put you all in my life.
I am not disabling comments so everyone gets a chance to tell me that they love me back.
I have a family of course that I love so much, but I have my church family that I share so much more with. I just wanted to say thanks for loving me and making me smile when I need it most. I'm so glad that I get to see you all Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays. I wish I could see you all more sometimes. I know you all wish you could see me a lot more too. Ha ha kidding. Really though we don't really tell each other how much we mean to one another. So I'm glad that I beat you all to it. I love you guys so much and am so thankful that God put you all in my life.
I am not disabling comments so everyone gets a chance to tell me that they love me back.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
HUIT
I was trying to remember the earliest childhood memory that I could. My friend was telling me she can remember being in pampers and I said impossible. Why can't I remember being in pampers? What am I saying, I'm glad that I can't. So I was thinking hard like really hard lol. I was kind of disappointed because I couldn't really remember anything before I was five.
I suppose everyone has thought about their childhood at one point and though I want to remember things I just can't. I have great memories though which I thank God for. I know not everyone had the best childhood but I'm so grateful that I did.
I see the kids from church in their skateboards and always playing around and it reminds me of how fun it was to be that age. Today we were playing like a bunch of kids at Sal's house. It was great, I had a lot of fun with Mikey and David. I guess I had fun with the grownups too. It was really great. It was so easy being a kid I really miss those days.
I know it can be really fun being a grown up too. It's just hard sometimes and I know kids have it hard too. Fine so it goes both ways but I really do think it was more fun as a kid. I guess what I am trying to say is that I really appreciate the childhood that I had. So kids enjoy it and please let me hang out with you as much as possible, kidding lol.
I suppose everyone has thought about their childhood at one point and though I want to remember things I just can't. I have great memories though which I thank God for. I know not everyone had the best childhood but I'm so grateful that I did.
I see the kids from church in their skateboards and always playing around and it reminds me of how fun it was to be that age. Today we were playing like a bunch of kids at Sal's house. It was great, I had a lot of fun with Mikey and David. I guess I had fun with the grownups too. It was really great. It was so easy being a kid I really miss those days.
I know it can be really fun being a grown up too. It's just hard sometimes and I know kids have it hard too. Fine so it goes both ways but I really do think it was more fun as a kid. I guess what I am trying to say is that I really appreciate the childhood that I had. So kids enjoy it and please let me hang out with you as much as possible, kidding lol.
Monday, January 7, 2008
SEPT
It's Monday and I am already ready for Friday again. I was talking to this girl here at work when I got back from lunch and she asked me how I was doing and I said great. She tells me that I always say that I am doing great and that I must have bad days every now and then. I just smiled and told her I try not to.
See this girl is always complaining about something that's going on in her life. I feel bad for her and I always tell her that God loves her more than anyone ever will. I told her that my life isn't perfect at all. She said that she never hears me complain, and I told her well maybe not to you. She said something that really got to me. She said that she wishes she was anyone else but herself. I told her that I would be praying for her.
So I came back to my desk and started to think a little. I don't think that I have ever had that thought of wanting to be someone else other than myself. Even now that I get that feeling of failure or disappointment. I know He loves me no matter what. I guess when I start to feel sad about something I always tell myself that God has blessed me so much even when I think some things are not blessings. When I feel like things are not going as I planned, I try and remember that God is in control not me. Everyone has bad days I know this, and I'm not having a bad day at all today, I guess Sam just got me to thinking. Our lives are not perfect and simple and full of excitement all the time, but we have many things to look forward to. I mean I have such great friends and family that it would be impossible for me to even want to be someone other than myself. The most important thing that I have to look forward to is heaven.
This is not a sad blog, but a blog for you to not be too sad the next time that you are feeling sad. Did that make sense cuz it did to me? Then of course I am the writer so it would make sense to me.
See this girl is always complaining about something that's going on in her life. I feel bad for her and I always tell her that God loves her more than anyone ever will. I told her that my life isn't perfect at all. She said that she never hears me complain, and I told her well maybe not to you. She said something that really got to me. She said that she wishes she was anyone else but herself. I told her that I would be praying for her.
So I came back to my desk and started to think a little. I don't think that I have ever had that thought of wanting to be someone else other than myself. Even now that I get that feeling of failure or disappointment. I know He loves me no matter what. I guess when I start to feel sad about something I always tell myself that God has blessed me so much even when I think some things are not blessings. When I feel like things are not going as I planned, I try and remember that God is in control not me. Everyone has bad days I know this, and I'm not having a bad day at all today, I guess Sam just got me to thinking. Our lives are not perfect and simple and full of excitement all the time, but we have many things to look forward to. I mean I have such great friends and family that it would be impossible for me to even want to be someone other than myself. The most important thing that I have to look forward to is heaven.
This is not a sad blog, but a blog for you to not be too sad the next time that you are feeling sad. Did that make sense cuz it did to me? Then of course I am the writer so it would make sense to me.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
SIX
Wow, so we are almost on a week of faithfully blogging. I say that we should celebrate after the whole month is completed. What should we do though hmmm? Let's have a big ol BBQ yes? Okay I feel like I am talking to myself so I will stop and get on with the real blog.
Today is Sunday and one of my most favorite days of the week. I was so late to church today because as I was all dressed and ready to go, my niece Jamie threw up all over me she hasn't been feeling so good and I happened to be hugging her at the exact moment that she decided to throw up. What could I do but go change.
Well I make it to church and missed all the singing which is my favorite part of the service. After I guess I kinda ran out but only because my brother Saul had text me to hurry up and go make some sides for a BBQ at his house. And no I wasn't playing with my phone during church, I only noticed because I heard it ring. I had forgotten to turn it off. So I had a really good time at Saul's house and was able to play with Madison, my favorite niece but shhh don't tell anyone. I made rice, potato salad, pico de gallo and a chocolate cake. The chocolate cake was my favorite ha ha. Meg, which is Sauls dog, loved the potato salad, dumb dog was eating all the potatoes that I kept dropping on the floor. Tomorrow will be more interesting I promise. This was kinda like a hurry up and right it blog thing. Hey at least I'm honest right?
Today is Sunday and one of my most favorite days of the week. I was so late to church today because as I was all dressed and ready to go, my niece Jamie threw up all over me she hasn't been feeling so good and I happened to be hugging her at the exact moment that she decided to throw up. What could I do but go change.
Well I make it to church and missed all the singing which is my favorite part of the service. After I guess I kinda ran out but only because my brother Saul had text me to hurry up and go make some sides for a BBQ at his house. And no I wasn't playing with my phone during church, I only noticed because I heard it ring. I had forgotten to turn it off. So I had a really good time at Saul's house and was able to play with Madison, my favorite niece but shhh don't tell anyone. I made rice, potato salad, pico de gallo and a chocolate cake. The chocolate cake was my favorite ha ha. Meg, which is Sauls dog, loved the potato salad, dumb dog was eating all the potatoes that I kept dropping on the floor. Tomorrow will be more interesting I promise. This was kinda like a hurry up and right it blog thing. Hey at least I'm honest right?
Saturday, January 5, 2008
CINQ
Well today was visitation at our church and like always I had a blast. I really enjoy Saturdays and look forward to them. It was a smaller group today but I was glad that I went otherwise it would have been even smaller. Besides some of my most favorite people were there so I was glad at that. I really enjoy talking to people, I can tell you that I don't enjoy the weirdos, but thankfully none of those today.
I only had to speak Spanish about three times today. See D doesn't really like her Spanish I guess so when there is a Spanish speaking person I go for it. I kinda like it a lot. I did have this one lady that I spoke to in Spanish and as I walked away thought to myself man you should have talked better. Not better Spanish I mean I felt like I could have tried harder. I don't like when that happens.
So since it was just us we did one side of the street and called it a day. We took about an hour or so. After we cleaned the church we left to eat at Los Asados. I had a great time there with D and her family. Juan wasn't feeling too great and had said that he wasn't going. Well once he heard I was going he changed his mind. Lol it's kind of like an inside joke that I had to throw in.
Well as we were walking out Juan pointed out this really nice vehicle that was parked right in front. I took a picture because this is the most nicest SS that I have ever seen. I wish I could have one just like it. I have never seen such a nice SS as this one. Ha ha ha sorry Sal we couldn't resist. Yours is alright too.
Friday, January 4, 2008
QUATRE
It's Friday finally, felt like it took forever and that's because we didn't work Monday or Tuesday. This morning I got a new running partner. I have said before that I am use to my treadmill, (aka the mill) but lately I have been jogging outdoors. Well I'm usually solo out there, but this morning was different, I got a jogging partner. Guess who? It was a dog , lol. This dog I have seen before and had scared me the first time but I figured out that he is friendly. Well he jogged all three laps with me, talk about a faithful, non-complaining partner huh? It was a cute dog otherwise I would have ditched it. When I got to the front door and opened it the dog wanted to come in as well. Perhaps it got the impression that I was it's new owner.
Work was good today, I was busy busy. Almost everyone left for a show in Las Vegas called CES. This is the second show that they do. They did Sema in November, so I have been alone before. I kind of like it only because I stay busy. I have never been to Las Vegas but it's fine with me, doesn't tempt me. The girls get all excited they love this time of the year. This is what they look forward to I guess. So orders kept coming in and I managed to stay busy all day for a change.
It's Friday alright and I feel a bit, well I don't know what I feel, but I feel something. I think it's cuz I was on the phone with the nurse earlier setting up the surgery. I just get bummed out sometimes at the fact that I don't have kids. I would love to have a mini Lucy following me around. Does anyone want to give a kid away? Sorry had to make myself smile some how. I'll be fine though, I know God has a reason for everything. Weird how my blog ended up here. I was caught in a moment I suppose. Dumb nurse why did she have to call me while I was in total blog mode. Kidding she isn't dumb, only cuz she might read this with my luck.
Work was good today, I was busy busy. Almost everyone left for a show in Las Vegas called CES. This is the second show that they do. They did Sema in November, so I have been alone before. I kind of like it only because I stay busy. I have never been to Las Vegas but it's fine with me, doesn't tempt me. The girls get all excited they love this time of the year. This is what they look forward to I guess. So orders kept coming in and I managed to stay busy all day for a change.
It's Friday alright and I feel a bit, well I don't know what I feel, but I feel something. I think it's cuz I was on the phone with the nurse earlier setting up the surgery. I just get bummed out sometimes at the fact that I don't have kids. I would love to have a mini Lucy following me around. Does anyone want to give a kid away? Sorry had to make myself smile some how. I'll be fine though, I know God has a reason for everything. Weird how my blog ended up here. I was caught in a moment I suppose. Dumb nurse why did she have to call me while I was in total blog mode. Kidding she isn't dumb, only cuz she might read this with my luck.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
(Trois) Bummer Day at Work
Fine so it wasn't such a bummer day, it was a little only because of some dumb incident. So everyone knows that I have the easiest, boring job in the world. I was actually suppose to not be working anymore and do school full time but it didn't plan out the way I thought it would. It really is that boring, the highlight of it is chatting and blogging and jaikuing. Well today I'm here and haven't really had much work to enter into the computer. We open at nine and we don't really get any action around here until about eleven or so. The owners come in whenever, but never before ten.
Well today one of the bosses walks in saying something like, blah blah blah which means that he is mad about something. It turns out that one of our customers is mad because of a big mistake that was made, which will turn into me in a bit when I'm done with the story. So the owner calls a meeting and everyone is listening, or pretending to and I hear my name. Well here is where the bummer part comes in. So someone made a mistake and we know who it was but Morris my boss says, "Lucy I am going to blame it on you because you are the newest here." I thought to myself I'm not even that new anymore but whatever. I really don't care only that now this buyer will think I am a complete ruiner of orders.
I guess I was just bummed out because he couldn't just say that it was a mistake. He had to go and say that it was the new girl which it wasn't. I hope he reads this so he can have a piece of my mind. Kidding I actually would so not want him to read this.
Well today one of the bosses walks in saying something like, blah blah blah which means that he is mad about something. It turns out that one of our customers is mad because of a big mistake that was made, which will turn into me in a bit when I'm done with the story. So the owner calls a meeting and everyone is listening, or pretending to and I hear my name. Well here is where the bummer part comes in. So someone made a mistake and we know who it was but Morris my boss says, "Lucy I am going to blame it on you because you are the newest here." I thought to myself I'm not even that new anymore but whatever. I really don't care only that now this buyer will think I am a complete ruiner of orders.
I guess I was just bummed out because he couldn't just say that it was a mistake. He had to go and say that it was the new girl which it wasn't. I hope he reads this so he can have a piece of my mind. Kidding I actually would so not want him to read this.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Jour Deux De Trente Et Un
Today has been a great day so far and it's one of my favorite days of the week too. I thought that I was going to have a rough start of a year but it has been really good. Yes I know it's only the second of the month but I'm being positive. There are just things that have been going on that really can bring even the happiest person down. All I can say is that I am so grateful to have such great friends. I'm especially grateful to the Lord for never leaving me even when I disappoint Him. The weather I love, I think it's the most perfect it has been all year long.
This morning I didn't want to get up for my morning jog. I mean jogging is my most favorite thing, but the cold just made me lazy I guess. Plus I'm use to my mill and my music. I was a bit worried because I lost the key to my brothers house and I was home alone. Well guess what I did? Yup, I left the door unlocked while I jogged around the neighborhood. I would look over there every time I passed up the house. Well as I was finishing up the last lap I see my brother pulling up so I try to beat him home because he will so kill me if he knows I left the door unlocked. Well of course he caught me and got after me like a kid, grrrrr. I guess I shouldn't have done that. He still loves me though so no big deal I guess.
I won't say that today was a regular day like any other day because it wasn't and people who say that are just kidding I think. Everyday is always a new day, so something new has to happen.
This morning I didn't want to get up for my morning jog. I mean jogging is my most favorite thing, but the cold just made me lazy I guess. Plus I'm use to my mill and my music. I was a bit worried because I lost the key to my brothers house and I was home alone. Well guess what I did? Yup, I left the door unlocked while I jogged around the neighborhood. I would look over there every time I passed up the house. Well as I was finishing up the last lap I see my brother pulling up so I try to beat him home because he will so kill me if he knows I left the door unlocked. Well of course he caught me and got after me like a kid, grrrrr. I guess I shouldn't have done that. He still loves me though so no big deal I guess.
I won't say that today was a regular day like any other day because it wasn't and people who say that are just kidding I think. Everyday is always a new day, so something new has to happen.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Jour Un De Trente Et Un
My first blog of the year and I think it was a pretty good day to blog about considering. Well I'll start off with wishing everyone a Happy New Year so Happy New Year to all my blogger and jacko friends. I started off the year waking up late which is not normal at all for me, but I do have to admit it felt a little good.
Well today I picked up my good friends D and Kim and went to lunch at the OG. It was something that I had been wanting to do with them but hadn't gotten around to it. I had a really good time with them so I was so glad that I went. After we went to my most favorite place, Starbucks mmmmm. The day went by so fast for me and I know it's because I woke up late. I hope we can have lunch more often guys and thanks for all your kind words. Well until tomorrow then, see ya all!
Well today I picked up my good friends D and Kim and went to lunch at the OG. It was something that I had been wanting to do with them but hadn't gotten around to it. I had a really good time with them so I was so glad that I went. After we went to my most favorite place, Starbucks mmmmm. The day went by so fast for me and I know it's because I woke up late. I hope we can have lunch more often guys and thanks for all your kind words. Well until tomorrow then, see ya all!
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